So I spend the weekend with the girls - which would have been great if it wasn't for the fact that one of the girls' hubby was also around ALL damn weekend!!!

 It's times like these where I wish I was allowed to pick out the guys your girlfriends gets together with - if that was the case my friend would NEVER have married THAT guy!

See this is the first I/we really was able to talk to guy and get to know him somewhat. See my friend who got married lives across the country from the rest of us so we haven't been around him before and now I'm starting to wonder WHY she would marry him!?!?

I really hate myself for thinking like this! I'm the kind of person who goes out of my way to try and like every single person I meet on the way through life, but this guy!! Seriously he just BUGS the heck out of me!

I have a bad bad feeling that I won't be spending as much time in the future with my friend because of him. I don't have a lot of close girlfriends because i hate the drama that often comes with having girlfriends, so I would hate to have to 'break-up' with one of them, especially over something like this, but I really don't want to be around her husband.

I guess I should just count my blessings that my bestest best friend has got a boyfriend who is the perfect guy for her and who also happens to have become a friend of both me and Boyfriend.

GAHHHH I really hate this! I'm the one who's supposed to be on the side of Love here! I just pray that he makes her happy! That he's the one who makes her world complete, if that's the case I will let him have that victory and not plot a way to get her out of that marriage!

All you need is love right?

Dunno if you've read Medusa81's blog, but I thought I'd post this, well I've had it planned since i re-watched the last ep of Buffy last week, but didn't want to spoil G, but here you have the reason why I've been craving cookies for days! I just wish he would have gone further with the cookie analogy - could have made such amazing innocent/dirty talk!

BUFFY
What was the highlight of our relationship? When you broke up with me or when I killed you? I'm well aware of my stellar history with guys... (sighs, leans beside Angel) And, no, I don't see fat grandchildren in the offing with Spike, but I don't think that really matters right now. (chuckles) You know, in the midst of all this insanity, a couple things are actually starting to make sense. And the guy thing— (sighs) I always feared there was something wrong with me, you know, because I couldn't make it work. But maybe I'm not supposed to.

ANGEL
Because you're the slayer?

BUFFY
(looks at Angel) Because—OK, I'm cookie dough. I'm not done baking. I'm not finished becoming whoever the hell it is I'm gonna turn out to be. I make it through this, and the next thing, and the next thing, and maybe one day I turn around and realize I'm ready. I'm cookies. And then, you know, if I want someone to eat— (eyes go wide as she catches herself) or enjoy warm, delicious cookie me, then...that's fine. That'll be then. When I'm done.

ANGEL
Any thoughts on who might enjoy— (sighs, irritated) Do I have to go with the cookie analogy?

BUFFY
I'm not really thinking that far ahead. That's kind of the point.

ANGEL
(hands the amulet to Buffy) I'll go start working on the second front. Make sure I don't have to use it. (walks away)

BUFFY
(calls after him) Angel. (he turns to look at her) I do... sometimes think that far ahead.

ANGEL
Sometimes is something. (smiles, walks away)

BUFFY
Be a long time coming. Years, if ever.

ANGEL
(shrugs) I ain't getting any older. (walks away)

Ok, I'm gonna dip into my Oreo supply to try and get rid of that craving and if all else fails I'll just have to sit down and watch B/A eps till I run out of kleenex. How's that for v-day plans!?!?!

 

Vamp Willow: "No. This is a dumb world. 
     (smiles wistfully) In my world there
     are people in chains, and we can 
     ride them like ponies."

"Doppelgangland"
Buffy The Vampire Slayer Season 3

  *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Don't we all have days where we wish we were
someone else or even just elsewhere? I know my 
daydreams have more than once brought me back to 
Brasil especially when we have weather as cold 
as
what's going on. 

Also other reason for me to choose this quote 
the obvious one ;)*lets reader take a beat to 
wonder* -yup that's the one! and Willow have 
ALWAYS been my favourite character of all of the 
Joss-verse so ofcourse I would love an episode 
like Doppelgangland. 

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~  
Been laying low today, well started out just 
hanging out and watching Aladdin for the second 
time in as many days with my cousin's 7-year-old
daughter and after that we got out the paper and
the multicolored markers and drew up a storm! 
Well actually we just drew flowers and trees and
such. Got some new art works for my notice-board
at my desk in the studyhall so that's good.

The rest of the day, as in after my cousin picked
up her daughter around 12 I've just been doing 
absolutely nothing well aside from watching more 
of BtVS season 3 which i just got on DVD so YAY
I'm a happy camper :)

Have this reoccurring dream.... No G it's NOT one of those dreams - at least i don't think it is, because if it is I'm REALLY in need some of serious therapy!

So I'm at university, nothing new or weird in that. What is weird is the fact that seems to be a cocktail party kind of thing going on for the parents of the students and the professors. Needless to say i'm there in my swanky black cocktail dress, again nothing new there i guess, my Dad is there as well - which makes sense since it's a party for the parents and all.

 NOW here's the weird thing, in this dream, my Dad is George Clooney! Of course all the professors and the other students are all impressed by the fact that he's there and that he's my Dad and he's being his own cool, smart and charming self.

see normally when i think of Mr Clooney, him being my Daddy is the LAST thing on my mind!!!
More importantly I have NO reason to EVER wish for another father than my actual real life better than perfect Daddy!
The logic part of my brain is telling me that this dream is the result of the fact that George looks a lot like my Dad in "Syriana" - still you can imagine how a curve-ball like this can throw you off your game.

So what do you think? Should i take the couch next to Seeley or is this, to quote Giles: part of the eternal mystery that is my brain?

Angela: You have to think before you speak.
Brennan: Why? I can say anything to you without thinking about it first.
Angela: Yeah, men aren't like us, they're much more fragile and needy. The fact that they think we're the needy ones is a testament to our superiority.

Gotta agree with Angela on that one! I know for a fact that Boyfriend would NOT be able to handle the thruth about what girls talk about when they are together with no men around. He would just curl up in a corner trying to forget what he'd just heard and I have to say that would be the case for ANY man!

My emmotions have been all over the place for the last couple of weeks!!! I'm ready to get off this roller coaster - or posibliy join Seeley in therapy...

One moment I'm laughing like a crazy person and being all giddy girly like. What am I laughing about? Well half of the times it's something only I find really funny other times it's for no apparent reason.

Next minute I'm sitting in a corner hiding my head in my hands and want to just be left alone. Not able to describe why I suddenly can't seem to face the world.

Only to turn into a sobbing mess with mascara streaks down my chin and a stuffy red nose, not attractive! I really should just stop wearing make up, cuz alot of the time I just end up look like a deranged clown and as we all well know:

CLOWNS ARE EVIL!!!!!!

-does a clown restraining order work both ways? Would they have to stay away from me too or am I the one who always have to be on the look out and actively stay away from clowns? Forget about 'what's the meaning of life' the inner workings of a clown restraining order really is Life's BIG question!

Like my new icon?

Once again I owe EVERYTHING to G my beautiful partner-in-crime! You Rock girl!!!

How great is it that I could just say, "well you know that pic i have as my msn icon, maybe that with the word 'comfort' written somehow." and then hey-presto next morning this pretty little thing shows up!

Think that image captures what we all need from time to time - someone to just hold our hands and make us feel comforted.

Still enjoying my time off from university, but am starting to get ready for classes to start up again and i've gotten myself a gig to help an author do some research-digging for a novel so that should be fun and will hopefully take my mind off of things!

EDIT: Oh and how bout that banner too!?!?!?!? Once again G came through in a big way!

Scene from "Bad Eggs"
Cut to the cemetery that night. Buffy and Angel 
are engaged in a passionate kissing session 
once again.

Buffy:  Ahh... (kisses) (breaks off) As much as 
I hate to say this, we should really go kill bad 
guys. (kiss)

Angel:  It's late. You should really get home. 
Hmm? (kiss)

Buffy:  What about the Gorches? (kiss)

Angel:  I'll hunt. (kiss)

Buffy:  Really? (pulls back and smiles) You'd do 
that?

Angel:  Not like I have an early day tomorrow.

Buffy:  Mm, (kiss) true. (they walk) I still have
 to go home and fill out my egg diary.

Angel:  Your what?

Buffy:  Oh, I told you, that faux parenting gig 
we're doing at school. (faces him) Like I'm 
really planning to have kids anytime soon. Uh, 
maybe *some*day, in the future, when I'm done 
having a life, but... 
right now kids would be just a little too much 
to deal with.

Angel:  I wouldn't know. (looks at her) 
I don't... Well, you know, I, I can't.

Buffy:  Oh. (looks away briefly, then back) 
That's okay, um... I-I figured there were all 
sorts of things vampires couldn't do. You know, 
like work for the Telephone Company, or 
volunteer for the Red Cross,
or... have little vampires.

Angel:  So you don't think about the future?

Buffy:  No.

Angel:  Never?

Buffy:  No.

Angel:  (swallows) You really don't care what 
happens a year from now? Five years from now?

Buffy:  Angel, when I look into the future, 
a-a... all I see is you! All I want is you.

Angel:  I know the feeling.

He reaches down to kiss her. He finds her lips 
and she responds. They kiss more and more 
passionately. 

*~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~**~*~*

Once again i'm looking to the Joss-verse for
both a place to hide and inspiration to fight!
Angel thought he would never become a father, 
and yet in season 3 of ANGEl, Conner shows up!
I need to believe that even in real life 
anything can happen! 

YAY!!!!!!

Now you might ask what got me 'yay-ing' like a crazy person? Well i'll tell you - we finally had some snow!!!!! Not just a little bit either - it's a beautiful winter wonderland out side right now! I like snow so much better than rain!

I had planned on go do some very important shoeshopping today, but i decided to forego it because of the snow, and postponed it to tomorrow. Instead I ended up watching at alot of episodes of season 4 of Buffy - total nostalgia going on there, I really didn't like the season when it was first shown, but that was just because of the Angel-missage, looking back it does really have some classic moments and episodes, plus Riley...

Sure I'm still as die-hard a B/A'er as the first time i laid my eyes on those crazy kids and I'm still waiting for my happily ever after - but I like Riley, now that is, even if he's not Angel, which you really can't hold against him. 

Tonight i have a mother of a decision to make: Grey's Anatomy or Men's Handball World Cup? Which to the rest of you is probably a non-choice but for this Dane it's a hard one! It's right up there with chocolate or chocolate, Angel, Angelus or Booth?

Last but not least:

CONGRATULATION MEDUSA!!!!

see I told you it would work out :)

That's right it's my birthday! the bestest day of all of the days in the year!

I'm back in my home town till wednesday, it's nice being home. Had all of my dad's family over for a birthday brunch today, which was really nice, especially since my cousin's two girls were here as well, they are just too cute! Got boyfriend's father coming over to have dinner with me, my parents and brother tonight, which i'm sure is going to be wonderful as well.

Boyfriend is off skiing with his mum's family in the Austrian alps, though from what he's telling me over the phone they are not as much skiing as they are looking at the rain coming down. A large part of me is feeling really sorry for them. They've been looking forward to this trip for a year now, but a small part of me is feeling kinda pleased - serves him right for leaving the country for my birthday. Yeah so not good karma feeling that way, but I really really can't help it and also it's only just a teeny tiny part.

Ofcourse after having gotten another season of Buffy (no. 4 if you wanna know) from Boyfriend i REALLY can't be angry with that beautiful piece of man now can I?

Ok, now I feel like having a bit more of some of that wonderful chocolate cake my mum made for today. Yes I'm having a very good day, family and friends around me and cake! Even talked to my friend in Brasil and G sent over the boys - how can i not have great big smile on my face!?!?