wow its new years eve eve!

wow I made a new sig now thats some nice HTML! same picture but with links to fun places on top! how cool!

i beat it today and i most says thats one hell of a game!

Today is Christmas Eve...im so excited for tommorrow....out of 365days these two are the best! Friends, Family, Presents, Drink and overall really good times!

Just today I finally made a song in Reason 2.5 that sounds good! Im so excited. Its not a very complex song. But its definitely a start and for something I made when I only started using Reason 2.5 about two months ago I think its pretty damned good!...if you are interested in hearing it e-mail me...its borders light industrial music in the Electronic Genre.

Wow i was just reading some of my previous Journal Posts and there full of mispelled words and incomplete thoughts....maybe I should revise them before I post them...hehe :D

Im trying to take all my ideas and make a song that sounds good to me...when you make music thats yours its hard to tell if its good or not so you need to make something you like and maybe other people will like it. i started using Reason 2.5 about 2 months ago so im still pretty new and just testing things and seeing how to take things I hear in my head into music and i can say ive learned quite abit and ive made a few songs. I played them to my brother and some he liked some he didnt..which can only be expected...however I played them for a freind and get what was to me a very negative response. almost as if he was making fun of me. saying crap like "wow dude these are some phat beats" when normally he wouldnt talk like that...as if im joking around when i make music...i just dont think he thinks the instrument i play is a real instrument...he plays bass guitar...everyone knows what that is....i however use a Midi Controller and software that basically emulates real instruments....hopefully something i make soon will impress him. its the best feeling making something and seeing them smile (in a way you just know they liked what they heard) its the best feeling in the world and im glad i got into making music this way. Ive been listening to techno music ever since i heard The Prodigy's "Voodoo People" from the movie The Hackers...that movie get me interested in computers and know i know more then anyone else i know personally about computers...but i think it also influenced me in another way and that would be musically! I know my lifes journey will start here and ill work my ass off to reach my one simple goal....make a song that i like and at least one other person. after that my goals will get harder and harder and ill work for them till the day I die! along with other things

Ive been thinking alot about why I'm alive, why I know and can do things I can, why I see what I do, and why I am the way I am. I figured in my life I want to discover and feel as many new things as i can and try to combine certains thoughts and feelings together and really try new things out be crazy and so far Ive get to I feel real good...im super confident and every day is something new for me....even old routines seem new again...and at the time when I needed it the most!

The last and only thing I put in here was lyrics to a song I like...how boring....ok so here goes my first Official Jounral Entry!
Christmas is comming up real soon and Im a pretty generous person because I love getting all my friends and family members BIG gifts so the next few paychecks will go to that among other things like my cell phone bill...(damn Verizon! jk). After Christmas I'm planning on making a second attempt at building a PC...the last time I tried the PSU was crap and blow and fried my mobo and I was pretty sad from the experience because of how hard I had worked but I think my morale is up and I'm going to try again!...hopefully it works! My specs will hopefully be:....

AMD Athlon XP+ 2600
Asus A7V880 Mobo
Mushkin 512mb PC3200 DDR Ram
Sound Blaster Live 5.1
Radeon 9600XT
WD 80 Gb 7200 RPM HDD (w/ 8mb Cache)
Thermaltake 350 Watt PSU w/ Dual Fans

This is close to the setup i had before. I was going to go all out and get a 64bit AMD but then decided once I have a working computer then ill consider making a really really nice one. This PC should hold me off for a little while!



Thats all I have to write for now Later :)

as black as the night can get  everything is safer now  there's always a way to forget  once you learn to find a way how    in the blur of serenity  where did everything get lost?  the flowers of naivete  buried in a layer of frost    the smell of sunshine  i remember sometimes    thought he had it all before they called his bluff  found out that his skin just wasn't thick enough  wanted to go back to how it was before  thought he lost everything  then he lost a whole lot more    a fool's devotion  swallowed up in empty space  the tears of regret  frozen to the side of his face    the smell of sunshine  i remember sometime    i've done all i can do  could i please come with you?  sweet smell of sunshine  i remember sometimes