update; heh. doode.wat a year huh? ive been off school fer almost a week and ive had an interesting week. ive been being pi$$y lately like really pi$$y. hmm. well me and jo havent moved forward like at all but on the trip he held my hand when we finally fell asleep [it took us 2 1/2 hours to get comfortable and then watch a movie] we fell asleep an hour before we got back to school and stayed asleep till we reached the school cuz noone bothered to wake us up [those hoes!] we got first place :D aaandd we won overall orchestras from the middle school and high school orchestras! ahha we were shouting "O'C YOU KNOW" [thats our schools chant] lmao and Jo was the loudest person so he said "O'C" and we all shouted back "YOU KNOW" and he lost his voice by the end lol [even though after the awards there was only like 2 more hours and then we went home] when we stopped at a convenience store me and Jo were the only ones that ate a meal lol and he had to go into the store cuz he lost his shoes [they were on the ground in front of the seat in front of us] lol.

weeelll me and my bf broke up. it doesnt have a story we just drifted and we ended on good terms :) . we still talk actually. and my friend who liked him before me but i didnt know yeaa im trying to hook them up since i know they would last becuz they both like each other but they dont want to ruin their friendship.[ i get that. specially since im doing the same thing. ]

im havin an awesome summer so far but me and Jo are drifting a tiny bit but i dont think my feelings fer him have changed. i just get like really jealous when i hear hes with other girls.

ugh gosh my BEST friend in the world is moving at the end of the summer. hes been there through everything and i MEAN everything ! he knows my deepest secret and god hes moving. imma cry, i really am when he goes. and i dont cry for nothin. heh i know we're gonna know each other ferever though no matter what. this is a friendship thatll last I KNOW IT. we're too close to just stop ourselves and stop our friendship :cry:. ill love him till the end of enternity :)

quote of a blog;

"Be kind, for all you meet are fighting a harder battle."

-plato

do it out for the '08 summer! -tanyadennicce

update;

ok then. well im still with my boyfriend and im content. but theres a nagging feeling at the back of my mind that says " i dont want him " but i do. i like him. hes funny and sweet and hes always doing things that i say he REALLY doesnt have to do. and if i lost him id lose an awesome friend. but im starting to think that maybe im just wasting his time. im still in love with Jo and its not fair to my bf to be doing this to him. hes awesome and he could find someone MUCH better than me. because i think that before i can get into a relationship that i need to get my priorities straight and figure out wats up with me and Jo.And if it turns out that it really is bcuz i love Jo and i cant get rid of that then im gonna go after him. i think thats the only way to figure this whole thing out. i hope it works out cuz i dont know how much more i can take of this. :?

happier update;

well ima go on a orchestra field trip! Jo is my partner cuz we'r bffffs and we'r gonna b together fer a whole 2 days since its overnight in cali. im ecstatic! wish me luck!

happy days :D

update!: k so the guy asked me out X) . on this day. i got home and thought I MUST WRITE ABOUT THIS!lawl. im ecstatic :D .

well heres the STORY: We were at the park k and remember the bet we made. well the bet was he had 2 prove 2 me that he wasnt gay and we were just sitting there talking and he casually slips in "well if i asked u out would that prove that im not gay and we had been facing each other at this point because he had been in the slide and i was sitting on top of it so i could just barely see his face and he stood up when he asked me that and put his forehead on mine i was like OMG he is SOOO mmmm lol and then i just smoothly said "maybe" [my voice craked soo bad lmao] and then he actually said "so do u want 2 go out?" i almost freakin screamed in happiness lol! i smoothly said "yea" [my voice was smooth fer once lol] and then the moment was perfect and then he goes and tells me "ooh theres my ride!" im like dang it! "he looked at me with his green brown eyes[yea. hot i know lol] and says "do i get a goodbye kiss?" u all know ive never been kissed. sad i know[ive had 5 bf's] but watever lol at least im not a whore lmao and i just did a quick peck and i blushed freakin pink lol[im darkskinned i dont blush red i go pink] he grinned [not smiled, grinned lol] and started 2 run cuz he had 2 go catch his ride. as i walked back 2 skool when i saw that he was gone i screamed lmao i scared some kid it was hilarious. and when i went looking fer my friends they all figured out wat happened just by the crazy smile on my face lol

im as happy as im gonna get and on saturday im going 2 a birthday party and since my old love was my partner but cant go till waaaay later into the party im gonna partner up with my bf cuz hes going 2[my friend invited him cuz hes just awesome 2 everyone and everyone loves him lol] and when my old love gets there im gonna probably stay with my bf and my old love is gonna go with someone else [theres 18 people going X)]

new name fer "old love" his new name is Jo k cuz thats the begining of his name k

dont mind the lovin part it rhymed so i added it lol

update!:

k so theres this guy! ( most of my stories start out like this lol ) well theres this guy. not my love! (who i happily have less and less feelings for him and im trying to get out their ya know.) but another guy hes funny and cute and this time my friends like him X) (lol they despised the other guy ) well i like him and i play around with him like a week ago he accidentally said i like men! i was like omg ur gay he freaked out on me im like chill ur business is ur business! and then hes like IM NOT GAY so i put a bet that he has 2 prove it 2 me by the end of the week he asked me 2day if kissing me would prove it but i still havnt been kissed so i didnt want it 2 b like that so then when i said bye he almost did kiss me but he turned at the last second and just gave me a bear hug im happy XD

orchestra update!:

ok so we went 2 festival THE most IMPORTANT thing fer orchestra-advanced [which i am in] and we got a 2[excellent] only because one of the judges was not giving anyone 1s and so he gave us a 3! horrible! they even said that they wernt inviting him back he was THAT bad of a judge the president of the music district even said we were great so we all got mad it makes u mad 2 work hard and then b underappreciated!

update;ok yeah guys suck butt yea a bit dramatic lol well the guy broke up with me about 2months ago actually lol but i finally got motivated 2 blog lol

heres the story; so the guy was retarded and knew like every other friend i have that my parents were STRICT and yet thats why he broke up with me cuz we could never see each other. other than at skool and after skool and i fergave him and now i dont speak to him cuz if he tried i would probably punch his face in lol [ now THATS anger management lol]

And now the surprise; well ya'll know "my love" [if u dont refer back 3-6 blogs k X)] ugh!! i fell fer him again i need help i know! i think its just something about him idk wat hes all depressed and fallen fer yet another guy and tells me all these RATED XXXX stories and yet i find him unresistably attractive! tell me wats wrong with me i need 2 know! seriously!! i feel like i can never like another guy without thinking of him and trying to make him jealous and the last 5 weeks ive gotten 2 sit next to him cuz our teacher got food poisoning and went to the ICU fer it and so shes still not back but :/ give me some ideas 2 y im like this just a guess even if u dont know

and now to the takedowns; ok i have finally seperated from my parents they have virtually no control over me anymore and it feels liberating i know that sounds mean but they act like im a tool that has no life and all they do is go 2 skool and b good little girls and dont want 2 go out w/ "freinds" lol but yes im done w/ them i still live here but they just stopped trying 2 make me do things cuz they know i wont X)

last story!; ok well theres this guy and he asked me out and i like him as a friend and nothing more cuz hes funny and great 2 hang out w/ but i just dont like him like that hes still waiting fer an answer and idk wat 2 say 2 put him down gently wat should i say?????!

OH AND PLEASE NO SYMPATHY I DONT WANT ANY

HAVE A NICE DAY AND COMMENT PLEASE x)

UPDATE!:

ok in the last update i told u about that guy that liked me and i like him well he asked me out 2day when we were walking :D and i said yes of course and then he had 2 leave cuz he rides the bus :/

i was so xcited now i can finally tell people that we'r goin out when they ask lol :D

im so xcited fer 2morow i get 2 hold his hand :D [ive been doing that in his poket cuz my hands get cold REALLY easy lol and he's "warming them up" but hes just there holding my hand lol]

and my old love was there after he had 2 go and hes like "alright! *HIGHFIVE*" he literally gave me a highfive and then we walked 2 algebra so i finally get closure heheh :roll:

o gosh im so happy :oops:

ok so theres this guy..... lol

UPDATE FROM PREVIOUS RANT ABOUT MY LIFE LOL :D :

so remember my "love" well im done w/ him he just had no more specialty 2 him anymore he used 2 b awesomely cool and different but now hes like all the rest :/ well it was expected since he just started 2 distance since he turned bisesexual and now i hardly even speak 2 him anymore well i wish it hadnt happened but it did and the torture is finally over ahaha...

NEWER UPDATE:

welll theres this new guy and ive known him since 6th grade didnt really talk 2 him b4 but now we'r WAY close lol i even voluntarily give him hugs [i DESPISE hugs] and so every1 thinks we'r goin out and i like him and i found out fer sure that he likes me 2day from a note that he sent my friend where she asked him if he liked me [confusing huh lol] and he said yea and asked my friend if i liked him and she of course said yes cuz almost every1 knows i do [its VERY obvious lol] and so im hoping he asks me out :D and i think all my friends r gonna b relieved when he does cuz we'r like both 2gether all the time and now we just need 2 realize it lol :lol: and i hope this 1 works out :/ and lasts @ least fer a while till high skool or longer.....

well till next time itll either b a new bf or another broken heartpiece[cuz u cant give ur heart away that easily.... do it by pieces :/]

If you're under the age of 13...you shouldn't even read this and if you do, you should not repost this. Just because you were born in '97 doesn't mean you're a 90's kid. It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons. I am sorry but three conscious years of the 90's just wont cut it.


You're a 90's kid if:


You can finish this.....ice ice _ _ _ _

You remember watching:
-Doug
-Ren & Stimpy
-Pinky and the Brain
-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
-Rockos modern Life.
-Gargoils


You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"


You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin west philidelphia born and raised . . ."

You remember:
-LEGENDS OF THE HIDDEN TEMPLE!!!
-Step by Step
-Family Matters!!!
-Dinosaur
-Boy Meets World!!!!
-Wild and Crazy Kids

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.


You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer days at school.


You remember reading "Goosebumps"


You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.


You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence . . . not


when everyhting was settled by:
-rock paper scissors or
-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or
-daddy had a donkey inky binky bonky.
-skunk in the barn yard

-ms. mary mack
-big mac a tea a tea

when cops and robbers was a daily activity.


when we played Hide and go seek until our legs grew numb.


when we used to obey our parents.


You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time.
"Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?" was both a game and a TV game show.

Captain Planet. He's a Hero.

You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.
You remember The Original (Big Gray) Game Boy.

You always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny.


You remember watching Home Alone 1, 2 , and 3 . . . and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"

You remember watching:
-The Magic School Bus[

-Wishbone
-Pete and Pete
-Reading Rainbow
-Wild Thornberries

-the OLD All That
-and Ghostwriter on PBS

Tu Pac was BOSS


You remember when Yo-Yos were cool.


You remember those Where's Waldo books.


You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gum from that paint bucket.


You remember watching:
-the 1st Batman
-Aladdin
-Ninja Turtles
-Ghostbusters
-Cousin Skeeter
-Taina
-Figure it Out


You remember Ring Pops.


You remember drinking Surge, and Tang.


If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB!"

When they made the new lunchables so that you could make pizza AND tacos.


You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.


Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them.


You played and/or collected "Pogs"


You wore "jellies"


You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere.


one word. . . . . . . . Furbies.


You haven't always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet.


And Windows 95 was the best.


You watched the original cartoons of Rugrats, Power Rangers, and Ninja Turtles.

Pokemon was awesome.


Michael Jordan was a king.


YIKES pencils and erasers were the stuff!


All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.


You remember when the new Beanie Babies and Talking Elmo were always sold out


You collected those Beanie Babies.


Carebears


Gak was the coolest stuff invented.


Lambchop's song never ended.


The old dollar bills.


Silver dollars, which were cool to have.


Everyone watched the WB and yelled at people who interupred them.

You collected all the Troll dolls


If you even know what an original walkman is.

if you still have one.

You remember wanting to sit on the orange Nickelodeon couch.


You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"

TGIF

ROLLER SKATING every friday and saturday night!


You know the Macarena by heart.

"Talk to the hand" . . . enough said


You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

You went to McDonald's to play in the playplace.


You remember playing on merry go rounds at the playground.


Before the MySpace frenzy . . .


Before the Internet & text messaging . . .


Before Sidekicks & iPods . . .


Before MIKE JONES . . .


Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360 . . .


Before Spongebob . . .


Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.


When light up sneakers were cool.

When you tight rolled your jeans and only the cool kids had primary colored suede jackets.


When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.


When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.


When we recorded
stuff on VCRs.


When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off of our walkman.


When checking out drawing books and that one book about the rainbow fish from the library was THE cool thing to do.


You had slap bracelets!

You Actually played outside until it was dark!


Way back.


Before we realized all this would eventually disappear....

OMG ITS MY BIRTHDAY!! AND HALLOWEEN BUT THATS NOT IMPORTANT!:P

my love gave me brownies and candles hes so sweet he even carried it around all day since that thing was heavy!! lol

and my best friend gave me a HUGE card and had every1 sign it and she gave me a really cute elefant i loved 2day

and then later my love is gonna go trik or treatin w/ me and my best friend god could this day get any better !!!

and now u now know wat the 1031 in my username stands for lol :lol:

OMG my birthday is tomorow :D

my friends alredy told me that their gettin me stuff :D

im so xcited i love my friends and my love since hes making me brownies and giving me a balloon :oops:

im so xcited tomorow is HALLOWEEN :D

and my love nd my best friend r both goin trik er treatin w/ me :D im sooo xcited and then 2night is Bones and House :D i cant wait!!! tonights episode looks really good :)

well wish me a good bday :D and ill do the same :D